About Begin Anew
Today, right now, every moment. I am beginning anew.
Thank you for visiting my blog. My name is Terryn Rutford. I started this blog as an outlet for writing with really no certainty regarding what the theme of my posts might be. As I began to write, I realized I was holding the part of myself back that had the most to say. Since the dawn of humanity, mental illness has been misunderstood, mistreated, and kept in the shadows. As a writer, I have only encouraged this taboo by staying silent. Writing about my illness and the challenges I have experienced started out simply as a catharsis, a way to share that about which I have always written.
I have kept journals inconsistently throughout my life beginning when I was ten. Writing has always been an outlet for me - a way to process and release some of the feelings that are difficult to manage and understand. My first memories are of sadness, shame, and fear. I have been diagnosed with bipolar and panic disorder. I have been to a dozen and one psychiatrists, therapists, counselors, etc., tried more medications than probably should ever run through any one's system, tried alternative treatments, and read countless books on countless subjects relating to mental health. I am only qualified to talk about myself, my experience, what has and hasn't worked for me.
The more I share here, the more I realize that my experience might help someone else feel less alone or understand more about mental illness. And so, I keep writing, for myself and for others. I hope that you will find something here for yourself, peace, knowledge, understanding, hope, comfort. If you have questions, please ask.
Thank you for visiting my blog. My name is Terryn Rutford. I started this blog as an outlet for writing with really no certainty regarding what the theme of my posts might be. As I began to write, I realized I was holding the part of myself back that had the most to say. Since the dawn of humanity, mental illness has been misunderstood, mistreated, and kept in the shadows. As a writer, I have only encouraged this taboo by staying silent. Writing about my illness and the challenges I have experienced started out simply as a catharsis, a way to share that about which I have always written.
I have kept journals inconsistently throughout my life beginning when I was ten. Writing has always been an outlet for me - a way to process and release some of the feelings that are difficult to manage and understand. My first memories are of sadness, shame, and fear. I have been diagnosed with bipolar and panic disorder. I have been to a dozen and one psychiatrists, therapists, counselors, etc., tried more medications than probably should ever run through any one's system, tried alternative treatments, and read countless books on countless subjects relating to mental health. I am only qualified to talk about myself, my experience, what has and hasn't worked for me.
The more I share here, the more I realize that my experience might help someone else feel less alone or understand more about mental illness. And so, I keep writing, for myself and for others. I hope that you will find something here for yourself, peace, knowledge, understanding, hope, comfort. If you have questions, please ask.
About Me
I am married to an infinitely patient and wonderful man named Erik and we live in a neat little neighborhood in Albuquerque, New Mexico. Erik is a member of the Air National Guard and also works in Engineering/IT. Don't ask me what he does, I couldn't explain it if my life depended on it.
I work from home managing websites and social media for small businesses. I have two dogs:
I work from home managing websites and social media for small businesses. I have two dogs:
I like to write, knit, craft, and snuggle my little family.